12/29/10

Hello 11 followers ^w^
Yay  11!  That beats my record of 3 including myself XD


I went to my friend Jessica's new house yesterday.  We scraped paint off of her bookcase XD Then we moved the bookcase and her bed into her room. We taped posters on the wall but they kept falling off because her wall is too rigid >.<  We played Go Fish about 10 times.  I won once..... Luck, where did you go???  I saw CATS for the first time too ^^  My favorite cats are Munkustrap, Mestoffelees, and Jemima.  CATS the musical is amazing O.O  It makes me want to become a better actor, singer, and dancer ^^
Their dancing amazes me O.O
I have learned the Hare Hare Yukai and I will hopefully record and post it tomorrow ^^
Today the snow is about 6 inches?  We have the longest drive way in the world; that's a hyperbole in case you actually believed me XD.  It's not fun shoveling that much snow >.<  The snow is gorgeous though.  I love how it falls in little ivory strings and puts a white coating on all that is exposed.  Darkness, even at night, exists no more when snow has invaded.  I adore the snow.  I just don't like the snow when it is black or brown or yellow.  Pure snow that hasn't been defiled by societies toxins is the best.  I usually close my curtain at night so my neighbors can't see my in my room, but I left them open today so I can see the snow resting on the trees ^w^  The picture is the view from one of the windows in my room.

Is it just me that likes snow?

12/25/10

I am really melancholic today TT.TT
I have 27 thumbs down on my Hoot dance T.T  I didn't think I did that bad but I guess I did.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SfSY-VlCH2Q

How is my dream supposed to come true if people don't even like my videos >.<  I don't think I will win the contest at this rate.  I didn't have any thumbs down until the 23rd T.T   what happened?  It's the Eve of Christmas Eve, quick lets get some haters up in the house...
Other people who entered the same dance for the contest and have less views than me have waayyy more thumbs up than I do T-T  This is my most hated video....  What happened?  I dance one Korean dance instead of a Japanese one and everyone starts hating it  TT.TT

To top it all off my mom says my dancing is "eh."
Thanks mom your support is what keeps me going.... not

12/23/10

Hello~

Recently I have been practicing singing XD  I have been using karaoke I find on youtube and practicing singing to it ^^
We were going to clean the mosque around 10 this morning, but we didn't leave until 12 pm because my mom had a really bad stomach ache :(
My mom has this friend... um.... I don't quite understand her status >.<  But this friend is the most annoying human being ever!   She calls my mom and talks to her for hours literally!  Most of the things she says is just repeats of things she has already said.  She attempts to make herself have a good light.  She says things like, "Ha.  Back in Bosnia they only showered once every two weeks but I showered twice every week!"  Basically everything she says is about herself and she's the best person in the world any everything great happens to her.  Did you know she changed her tired 3 times this month?  She forgot she already told my mom she changed her tires >.<  But the guys sold the tires to her cheaper than everybody else in that shop.

I dusted the lamp fixtures in our bathroom.  My mom told me not to dust the hot lamps with a wet rag because the cold water could make the lamp break XD   Hmmm... >->     

12/22/10

Yo Elyssa... my only reader XD
I kept my previous posts awfully apathetic.  I thought people are going to read this, they don't care how I feel they just want to know what happened.... boy I was wrong... People don't even care what happened... I have 3 followers.. one is me XD  I set my blogspot to Japanese which I am still learning and I can't quite figure out what's going on >.<  The second follower is a person who I just randomly followed and they probably felt the need to be nice by following back.  The third follower is probably the only one that reads my posts.  Thank you Elyssa for reading  my posts ^.^
Well since I am not writing to a large audience... I will express some emotion.  I am going to try to blog each day so I can come back in a while and read what happened.... I will write most of what happened... I usually keep my true feelings to myself >.<

Why the sudden change?  You are actually going to be blogging more now?
My mom feels I am a waste of money.  My dreams are irrelevant and impossible.  I might have had a chance if I didn't wear a hijab... You know what mom?  When I didn't wear a hijab you still thought my dream was useless and you said only rich people get to become actors.  I practically didn't exist to you.  When I decided to wear a hijab I existed to you and mattered for a about 2-3 months... What is this? Some immature adolescent dating relationship?  I don't exist anymore.  Do I not matter?  You are never been supportive... you're the reason I doubt myself so much.  You are the reason I am reserved.  You are the reason I act the way I do.  Can't you at least care?  Why'd you keep me around if you are not going to even say a nice word to me?
Yeah sure.  My dream is hopeless.  A waste of time and money.... I am have this useless dream since I was in fourth grade!   What am I supposed to do?!?!?  I have worked hard to practice acting, dancing, and singing all by myself in my room but you yell at me to quiet down.  You let me go to classes in fifth grade thinking, ugh she's been nagging me for a year fine.  Now I ask for classes and you say it's a waste of money we don't have.  I am tired of the money excuse!  Nothing can happen since we have no money.  We can't go on vacation... I am not asking to go to Seattle!  God forbid going to Disney World.  I am asking to just go to some place here in our town that we haven't been to... Like can't we just have a picnic by the river?  Let me guess... you are busy with your three jobs and we don't have time or money to spend on food and gas.  Eat what we have.....  okay... thanks... I'll enjoy tomato paste.. thanks food banks of America.... Your stocks of tomato paste are never ending are they?

Fine.... I have said this to myself so many times:  I can do this by myself then!  If my own mother will only shoot me down I will work hard myself.
All 1,223,775,908 times I have said this to myself I only get strength through the night... why through the night?  I usually have this thought during the night... But when that burning gas ball comes to wake me up in the morning my strength is gone.  I remember my mom doesn't approve.  She doesn't care.

Some people go on with their lives without their parents... well my culture is all about family... It's too hard to let go of myself.... We are raised to believe you only have family... Americans say "friends come and go, but you will always have family"  .... So my friends will leave me and my unsuportive family will ditch me as well... So basically my status as a human being is "non-existant."  YAY


Tomorrow we go and clean the mosque.  We clean it because we need the money.  You know how fun it is to clean chairs, tables and floors for 3 hours straight?  that is my job.  I get to inhale Clorox and whatever else for three hours... who needs Oxygen?  We need money to live not O2. 
What sucks?  We only clean once a month... That's not enough. 

Oh well.  We'll deal.  We manage as a family.  I am just the third wheel.  The red sheep... why red?  There's a community of black sheep building up.


 

Kpop

Hello~

Recently, love has been sent to SNSD's new comeback Hoot by tons of fans around the world including me ^w^ >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F4-SxcCO5d0http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F4-SxcCO5d0

JYJ~~~ My favorite song of theirs http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v80NCILlYj8

This weekend I need to sew some puppets and write an essay >.<

This week I only had school Monday through Wednesday :)  I auditioned for the school musical Hairspray on Tuesday but I didn't make call backs >.<  Maybe next time ^.^ 

I am going on a diet... my diet plan is to drink 10 glasses of water and after doing 50 situps in the morning I will eat an apple XD  I will obviously eat throughout the day... I am going to do this plan in hopes of getting prominent abs >.<

Hmm... future self, if you ever read this and your dream hasn't come true yet, then TRY HARDER and DON'T GIVE UP!!!

Remember to smile ^w^ It's healthy

ごめなさい、 さいきんは。。。 Sorry, recently... NT

 www.youtube.com/user/Chalkgoop   <------------------- please check it out ^w^

こんにちは～～

Recently I have been reading these awesome books.  The Hunger Games Series, The Maximum Ride series, and The Mortal Instruments series..  They are such amazing books XD
Sadly, since I have been using my time reading these books I have been spending less time studying T.T  Bad Dina.  Any suggestions to stay focused in fifth and sixth period??

I am extraordinarily obsessed with the Korean group SHINee.   I also like the Korean groups SNSD(Girls Generation), DBSK, 2NE1, Orange Caramel, Brown Eyed Girls, and BoA.

Hopefully this weekend I will have "You Make Me Happy" on youtube.
I will also hopefully be going to my first haunted house >.<


NT

February 11, 2005.  I have just applied my favorite perfume of the time; it was a very strong vanilla scent.  My neighbor complained to me that it smells too strong and makes her nose hurt.  I ignored the complaint.  I am in fourth grade; I am a big girl, and I will smell the way I want, but I will kindly listen to your complaint and take it to deep consideration.

My brother and I descend the three stone stair cases in the apartment building until reaching the ground floor.  My vanilla perfume left an eerie invisible scent trail stalking me. 
We waited outside by the corner of the tennis court where a tall green bush has been expertly planted to spruce up the landscape.  Many kids gathered waiting for the unpunctual bus.

Once the bus never even showed up.  We thought we didn't have to go to school that one freezing cold snowy day.  We were wrong.  One of our neighbors drove us in his tiny green car.

I was waiting for the bus with my neighbor Danny, 2 years older than me, and my brother Edin, 1 year younger than me.  Other kids from up the hill, mainly Russians, also waited at the stop with us.

"Dina look! It's a racoon!" Edin excalimed.
"Really?" I ask twirling around to see the racoon. "That's a cat not a racoon!"

The cat was a Russian Blue Persian mix with medium hair.  Being a Russian Blue, the cat was so gray that it looked blue in certain lighting.  She had lime green eyes that pierced.
She trotted right up to our little group of three and behaved cutely.
We couldn't resist.  We went over to the sweet kitty and stroked it soft and cuddly fur.
The bus eventually showed up and we drudged off to another day of school.

I don't know about other elementary schools, but at my elementary school we had classroom numbers on the ground outside.  The number of my class room escapes me.  We all lined up in front of our classroom numbers and waited for our teachers to come and lead us up to our classrooms.  Standing outside in freezing cold February is not fun.  Even if you are in fourth grade.  We all stayed in a line but most people deviated and stood in little groups to talk with their friends.  Yes, we still become angry if another kid cut in line.  We even did the whole "can I cut behind you?" annoying the children behind us >.<

It was a Friday.  We, my mom, my brother, my neighbor Danny, and I, used to go to the YWCA every Friday to go swimming.  We would just splash around in the kids end. We felt like bboys and a bgirl when we crossed the line which marked off the end of the kids area and didn't get caught by the lifegaurds.

When we returned home to our third floor apartment, 305, the same cat from that morning was on our door mat!!!  It's a three story apartment.  Seven apartments per floor.
I automatically assumed the cat followed my vanilla scented stalker from that morning.

The neighbors the lived in 304, Heather, Dean, and their child at the time, Haley, also had a gray cat.
Heather said she thought their cat Charity somehow got outside so she let this stray cat in their apartment falsely believing the cat was hers. >.< Cats are very territorial creatures.  Charity popped out of nowhere, well she popped up from somewhere it's not like she's a magician, and hissed at the other cat.  Heather immediately kicked the stray cat out.  She felt bad about kicking the cat out so she set out some cat food for the cat.  Feed a stray cat and it will always come back.

I really, really, really always wanted a pet.  My mom was one of those typical cleanly Bosnian female mothers.  "Ewwww we don't need a pet to be shedding all over the place!  That's a lot of extra cleaning!"

Heather managed to convince my mother to take the cat!!!!!!   I have known my mother for 10 years and one month exactly to the day and I have been asking for a pet practically the my whole life!!!  Heather used the argument that a cat would be good for my brother.  Responsibility and what not.  We would keep the cat until someone came to claim it.

The cat walked in the apartment.  It went down the hall and it rubbed it's cheek against the computer desk and then it claimed everything else in the house. I remember following her throughout the house.  I know my mom got the cat because she thought it'd be good for my younger brother, but the creature fascinated me.

Heather taught us how to potty train the kitty.  We borrowed some litter and food from Heather.  After filling a shallow box, because we didn't have a litter box, with kitty litter, we took the kitties paws and wiped them through the litter for about 5 minutes.

I wanted to be extra helpful, and make sure the cat didn't have any accidents so my mom wouldn't kick it out, so I put paper towels in cardboard boxes around the apartment in hopes that the kitty would go in one of them if it couldn't find the litter box.

I named her Maci.  We later changed the spelling to Mazzi.  The z's make the same sound they do in the word pizza.  Maci in Bosnian mean kitty.  It is very feminine.  We didn't check it's gender, but we automatically assumed it was a girl because it was very cute.  My brother argued it was a boy.  I declared it was a girl and convinced my mom with some fancy English words that it was a girl.  My mom can speak English; she's not as fluent as I am though.

We finally had a pet that wasn't Fishy... my fish, in case you couldn't guess.... yes I know.  My pet's names are extraordinarily creative.


Thank you for reading ^w^

Potluck ___ NT

こんにちは～～


みってください 　＾ｗ＾
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I went to 2 potlucks O.O    I have to go on a diet T.T  any ideas or tips to help me XD

School is starting this Thursday >.<  I am glad that i get to see my friends but I am sad my summer is over

I am going to have a section called "Nostalgia Time" where I will just have some random memories of when i was younger XD  I want to look back at my blog and see what I was like and I don't want to forget things when I am older >.<
Things stop existing if no one remembers them... at least to humans they do... I think that was one of the points in '1984' right?
I will try to make it like a mini story and I will incorporate everything I remember 


Nostalgia Time

Characters:
Dina (me, female) age: 3-4 years old
Nedim (oldest cousin, male) 6-7 years old
Edin (younger brother, male obviously >.<) 2-3 years old
Mediha (Nedims younger sister, female obviously >.<) 4-5 years old


We, my mom, younger brother, and I, went to visit my uncle, my moms twin, in Saarbricken.  This of course happened when we still lived in Germany.  My oldest cousin had just gotten a Game Boy!!!  Him and my brother were playing with it and absolutely immersed in it's awe-someness.  I asked if I could get a turn and play next.  They said I could NOT!!!  It was called a Game BOY!!!  I am not a boy so i can't play...  I got sad and then angry.  I stomped off.  I went into the next apartment/room.  (totally not weird to leave the apartment/room and go into the next one because my grandma lived in the next apartment/room)  Mediha was there.  Mediha is very pretty.  She is tall and she has blond hair and so does Nedim.  Which is kinda weird because her dad, my uncle and my moms twin, has brown hair and their mom has brown hair as well.  My mom on the other hand is slightly albino and she has yellow hair.  My brother and I don't have blond hair.  We are supposed to be blondies kids, but my cousins have blond hair instead of us.  My mom always says they're blond like their aunt and that it's as if she's their mom >.<  Mediha also has large green eyes that my mom enjoys teasing her for.

Mediha suggested we should play barbies.  There were two Kens and two Barbies.  But one barbie was uglier, in my opinion >.<  She let me be the prettier barbie!! ^w^  I felt really happy.  At least one of my cousins is nice.

We played for a while.  We mainly played in our own little world separately.  But sometimes we would come together.  We even went rock climbing up the chair leg!  Mediha fell off!!! O.O  But thankfully her husband was there to catch her ^.^  phew... I didn't fall off once though XD  My husband and I came to the top first and the fastest >.<

XD

 こんいちは～～

Well I got another blog XD
please check out→→→→→  www.youtube/user/Chalkgoop

Hmm... i probably need some kind of an introduction XD 

My name is Dina.  You can call me Sakura.  I aspire to be act in movies and on tv and to be a dancer ^w^
It isn't in my budget to afford an agent or to travel outside of my current city >.< considering I am only 15
Many people believe my dream is quite stupid to aspire toward because they think it's impossable because I am a muslim.  I dress like a muslim.  No... not the sterotypical muslim that only shows her eyes and that is exploding >.> or whatever people think muslims are... I am a normal 15 year old girl who dress modestly, who has a religion, and who has a dream.  I like wearing cute clothes btw ^.^ 
I am posting videos of my self dancing on youtube hoping to be found by somebody in the industry.  I can wear wigs. Well not mulitple wigs at once because that'd look weird and I only own one wig >.<
I am interested in Japan and Asian culture.  I am studying Japanese as well ^.^

I WANT TO PROVE PEOPLE WRONG!!!  I want to show them my dreams can come true! It doesn't matter what religion I am and what my current gross income is.  I don't want this Islamophobia to spread further because it is quite frankly, dumb.  I want to show people muslims are good people :D

muslim= a person who follows the 5 pillars of Islam (Shahada(sp?)), Prayer, Fasting during Ramadan if able, Giving money to the poor, and going to Hadj(mecca.. you know the place with the Kaba.. that black building) if possable
you also need to read the Kur'an (the musilm holy book) to be considered a muslim since the Kur'an is the book that guides you on how to live your life (well in the opinion of muslims all of over the world... I totally understand why the Kur'an wouldn't matter to some people, since they're not muslim and all XD)

Oh and I am white... yes.... contrary to popular belief...
this lady on the bus asked me once if I was muslim and then she asked me if I was white.... I am whiter than you are lady >.<  you had a very nice tan...
But I am quite sure I am a white European

wow that was a long entry XD  no one is gonna read it anyway T.T sad :(
Well I will hopefully keep posting and maybe in the future when I am famous I can read my blog entries and see what I was like when I was a teenager in America ^w^

Good job if you read all of that XD